Pregnant waiting

waiting, wondering, wishing
the meantime it’s a lean time, feels like i have much
but yearn for so much more
it’s hoping in the dark it’s trusting, it’s worrying,
then settling down
getting worked up, then calming,
tensing, then relaxing
it’s trying to see the future
it’s being OK with here and now
waiting is growing—a painful process but when the wait is fulfilled,
it’s rejoicing it’s all been worthwhile

Lord as I wait I don’t want to compromise
I don’t want to fill space and time with useless distractions,
or even useful ones

May this time be pregnant with expectancy,
hopeful that good things will come, Your promises fulfilled
may I be filled with your spirit, rather than anxiety
may I be full with You
You are alive and living inside me

waiting is letting go of control of wishes, wants, desires, plans
it’s accepting what God has in store
opening hands to accept good gifts

Jesus waits on us
He came to earth so He could be acted upon
i like to be an actor—the one who initiates the action,
but God calls us to wait for Him to act—and even so,
this isn’t something He Himself hasn’t had to endure
Jesus Christ, the divine Waiter
help me to wait like you—patiently, trustingly, honestly, lovingly

Beautiful words from Romans 8 (The Message)

In his Son, Jesus, he personally took on the human condition,
entered the disordered mess of struggling humanity in order to set it right once and for all. …Those who trust God's action in them find that God's Spirit is in them--living and breathing God!
Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life.
This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It's adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike "What's next, Papa?"
God's Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children.
We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we're certainly going to go through the good times with him!
That's why I don't think there's any comparison between the present hard times and the coming good times. The created world itself can hardly wait for what's coming next.
Everything in creation is being more or less held back.
God reins it in until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the same moment into the glorious times ahead.
Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens. All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it's not only around us; it's within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We're also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother.
We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don't see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy.
Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.